Peace and Insecurity: A Writer’s Loss of Purpose

Today is September 1st. The end of one month and the beginning of another. A lot has happened since my last post before taking a hiatus. A trip of a lifetime to Montana, taking my social media break, and finding myself growing more insecure about my purpose and passion.

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One of the many hot springs I visited in Yellowstone

For two weeks in August, I was with my family in Montana. We were visiting Yellowstone National Park for the very first time. Along the way, we stopped in South Dakota and had the opportunity to see Mount Rushmore, another site we never saw before.

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Mount Rushmore!

During these two weeks, I went whitewater rafting, photographed the numerous bison walking by my dad’s truck in the park, visited Grand Teton National Park, had horses visit us at the house we were staying, and got to sit in the big backyard and enjoy the mountainous view before me. I felt peace, connected with nature for the first time in a while, and did things I never thought I’d do five years ago.

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Then I came home. Suddenly gripped with a sense of loss, loneliness, and depression, I started to view my life as disappointing. I felt at 25 years old that I was a joke of a human being. I felt I had let many down from God to family and friends and work. I felt most of all that I let myself down. I was looking forward to writing about my adventures for YAYWORLD when I came home, but then I lost my nerve.

Since, I’ve felt broken, wondering if I wasted my life on a passion that isn’t cooperating lately. Dwelling on decisions I’ve made. I’ve even been questioning my faith, again. I am not a perfect writer nor human being. I have had my ups and downs like everyone else. I get angry about things, I question a lot, and think a little too much. My emotions are not as bad as they were a few weeks ago, but they linger.

When I took my social media break, I felt free. I didn’t need to dwell on comments from random people I might never meet, fandom stuff, and more. I could slow down and remember what means the most to me: what’s right in front of me. I still have that perspective since coming home, but I further question social media’s role in my life.

 

 

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Traveler’s Chapel at Wall Drug, Wall, SD

 

A person’s journey will always have the peaks and valleys that define it. We will have our great moments of triumph, and our deep sorrows with failure and mistakes. However, compared to a year ago, I feel I’m where I’m supposed to be. Whatever the struggle in your passion, writing or not, you will find it again. Take a break from social media for your own peace of mind and perspective. Also, step out of the comfort zone and try something new; you never know what you will discover.

I know it has been over two years now since this blog began, and I am forever grateful to all of you who comment and read. Blogging has given me another outlet to reach out to others and share my thoughts, and I pray it’s making a difference in your life and take something away from each post and book review. May we continue for many more years!

Happy writing!

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Making My Way Back

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I still have a few thoughts to think over, and this week has been long and difficult. Please know that I am finding my way and the hiatus was good for me. Taking time away from social media was a welcome breather as well. If you ever feel overwhelmed by the Internet and social networking, taking some time away will make a difference.

When September begins next week, I will say more.

But I am okay. I just need to find my heart again, one step at a time.

Taking Time to Breathe: A Writer Needs a Break

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I am writing this to announce a hiatus for the first half of August for the blog. This is a decision I do not take lightly, but I am doing this because I need to step back for a few weeks…and reassess things. I hope you all enjoyed my Top 10 series during July.

No, this blog isn’t going away. Not by a long shot! But after getting sick earlier this week, I realized that I needed to step back. I need to be away from the computer, decompress, and take time for me. I also want to reassure everyone that there will be a Book of the Month review for August. The post will just come later in the month.

I will be back later this month with more posts about writing, more insights about what I learn, and more reviews. We writers need to remember that walking away for a while IS OKAY. Also, taking time to enjoy good books is how we grow in our writing. If I want to get a book done one day, I need to seriously consider things and look at what I can offer like authors before me.

Thank you all for your support, understanding, and respecting my space during this hiatus. Again, I will return. I don’t quit easily.

Keep writing and finding your way as an author!

My Top Ten General/Contemporary Christian Fiction Books

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It’s the final post of my top ten series! I hope you all have enjoyed the lists and have come across some new reads, or rediscovered old ones from the past. We will see what August brings for the blog!

Here are my top ten general/contemporary Christian Fiction Books. Please note that this may be more mixed because of the multiple genres some books fall under.

10) Divine by Karen Kingsbury

9) Chasing Hope by Kathryn Cushman

8) Bridge to Haven by Francine Rivers

7) Red Rose Bouquet by Jennifer Rodewald

6) Strings of Faith by Terry Stafford

5) Between Sundays by Karen Kingsbury

4) Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers

3) The Sinner’s Garden by William Sirls

2) The Cat That God Sent by Jim Kraus

1) The Reason by William Sirls

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Happy writing and here’s to the end of July!

My Top Ten Contemporary Romance Books in Christian Fiction

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I began this series talking about my top ten Christian Fiction Writers. For the final two weeks, I’m going to focus on Contemporary Romance and General Christian Fiction. One reason is because I have many of these books on my book shelf. I try very hard with my faith not to be preachy or force something on others, so I understand why some may not be interested in these final two posts.

But it’s more than that for me. Character development, real life lessons, relatability, and plot have made these novels memorable. It’s why I pick them up over and over again or cherish them every day on my bookshelf.

So here’s my top ten Contemporary Romance Books in Christian Fiction:

10) Ordinary Snowflakes by Jennifer Rodewald

9) Meant To Be Mine (Porter Family Series #2) by Becky Wade

8) Maggie’s Miracle (The Red Gloves Collection #2) by Karen Kingsbury

7) The Bridge by Karen Kingsbury

6) Once Upon a Summertime: A New York City Romance (Follow Your Heart #1) by Melody Carlson

5) The Wedding Chapel by Rachel Hauck

4) A Broken Kind of Beautiful by Katie Ganshert

3) Paper Hearts by Courtney Walsh

2) My Stubborn Heart by Becky Wade

1) Undeniably Yours (Porter Family Series #1) by Becky Wade

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Tune in next week for the conclusion of my top ten series!

Happy writing!!

My Top Ten Nicholas Sparks Books

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My Nicholas Sparks Books

Before discovering Christian Romance, Nicholas Sparks’s books were my first encounter with romance novels as a teenager. My mom has always been a huge fan of his books and after reading a few, I found the other ones she had. I also watched a few film adaptations of some of the books. For this week, I wanted to do a top ten list of my favorite books from this author. See if you recognize your favorites! His next book, Every Breath, releases later this year.

10) The Last Song

9) Dear John

8) Message in a Bottle

7) The Notebook

6) See Me

5) Nights in Rodanthe

4) The Longest Ride

3) A Walk to Remember

2) Safe Haven

1) The Lucky One

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Tune in next week for my next list!

Happy writing!

My Top Ten Shakespeare Plays

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I can imagine a few groans with my list this week. Many of you read a few Shakespeare plays back in high school and probably dreaded them. I admit, I was the same. But after taking a Shakespeare class my junior year of high school and later on in college, I began to appreciate the Bard’s works. Timeless themes, memorable characters, and famous scenes showed me that Shakespeare was ahead of his time. I also had the chance to read some of his sonnets in college, but I prefer his plays more. Plus, watching film adaptations of the plays helped me better understand the language and the timelessness of Shakespeare.

So without further ado, I present my Top Ten Shakespeare Plays. I also listed two or three of my favorite characters:

10) Henry IV Part One (Favorite Characters: Falstaff, Hotspur, Prince Hal)

9) The Tempest (Favorite Characters: Miranda, Ariel)

8) A Midsummer Night’s Dream (Favorite Characters: Helena, Oberon)

7) Macbeth (Favorite Characters: Lady Macbeth, Three Witches, Banquo)

6) Romeo and Juliet (Favorite Characters: Friar Lawrence, Nurse, Juliet)

5) As You Like It (Favorite Characters: Celia, Duke Senior, Touchstone)

4) Julius Caesar (Favorite Characters: Calpurnia, Soothsayer, Portia)

3) Othello (Favorite Characters: Desdemona, Emilia, Iago)

2) Measure for Measure (Favorite Characters: Isabella, Vicentio the Duke)

1) King Lear (Favorite Characters: King Lear, Cordelia)

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What top ten list will I unveil next week? Tune in to find out!

Happy writing!